Well the train is just about to arrive, 1 more day and Jess and I are jumping on for our ride to the DROP ZONE.
This is very exciting for me. All my life I have battled the bulge. After 3 kids and 30 some years later, it just does not want to come off. It has been so frustrating for me.
The last 4 years have been the roughest. In 2008 I was injured on the job. I tore my rotator cup and hurt my back, and therefore out of work and physically unable to pretty much do nothing but sit around and get bigger.
I have a very close and dear friend that lived in OH. she too was going through so much more then me emotionally and she needed me as much as I needed her to help each other out. I packed up my little car, and my sweet little Chahuahua TARA and we traveled 3000 miles to heal.
I did start feeling better and growing stronger. My sweet friend is a walker so she got me motivated to get moving, We were up to walking 4 to 5 miles a day. I eventually got a part time job in a call center and life was getting back on the right track. My husband and I were talking but things were still very tense there. We just were not to the point of reconciling yet.
I was in OH for 6 months and then recieved a call from home from my children, that their Dad, my Ex Husband and also a very dear friend was in very bad shape. Kirk has had a bad heart for years and the doctors were only giving him months to live. They wanted to do an operation that would give him a mechanicle heart that would keep him alive for possibley another 5 to 8 years. It was a huge decision for him but in the end it was the best. So I wanted to go home to be there for our children and my blessed friend. By then I had lost about 20 lbs and was feeling great. The job I had was able to transfer me to a Seattle team and I was promoted to receptionist and full time. Life was looking up.
After several months things were clipping along pretty good. Kirk was healing, I was staying with my boys and Kirk, and my husband and I were still trying to work things out but not yet ready to commit. I ended up moving to Everett to be closer to my job, had my own little apartment and eventually my daughter Jessica came to live with me for awhile. Mark, my husband and I also decided to give it one more try.
By this time I had noticed that the stress level of life was down but the weight was starting to creep back up on me. I also was starting to have alot of back pain, headaches, musle tension and leg cramps. I went into see my Doctor and she said that it was my fibermyalgiea along with bursitis and artheritis, what next I thought.
Well what was next is in September of 2011 I was injured again on this job, only this time I did far worse then the last time. I hurt my shoulders, neck and lower back. The pain was horrible, and it just made all my other sympthoms worse. I was a complete mess. again my stress level was reaching dangerous heights.
My Husband and I were doing okay but he could not find work. We were way behind in our bills, L & I did not pay me anywhere close to what I was making and things were spiriling out of control. Again my weight was soaring as well. We ended up being evicted from our apartment, my beautiful car repossesed and life was completely in the toilet. Thank God above for my faith because I just kept praying for something to please break soon. My daughter had moved on by then to Mt Vernon where she got another job and was doing well. Unfortunately for Mark and it was struggle after struggle. He ended up getting a painting job in Yakima for a couple of months and I moved back in with my boys because I needed to be close to my Doctor appts. and he only had the back of our truck to sleep in. Although bless my niece and nephew in Ellensburg they fed him and gave him a warm place to stay when needed.
As summer rolled around we bought a tent and lived on the Yakima River for a few month while Mark painted houses. We were able to save and get enough together to buy a Motor Home, nothing brand new of course but nice enough to live in for awhile. We figured it to only be temporary, and Mark was working on putting together a new business so that he would have work come the winter months again.
Winter 2011 was not as good as we had hoped. We did start a new business but we were having technicle difficulties getting it off the ground. We were at least warm and happy in our Motor Home.
Summer of 2012 came and things started looking up. Mark was very busy with painting season. I was healing pretty good and the doctor finally released me back to part time work. Yeah all was starting to go well, we were putting money away. Got all our bills caught up. now we were looking foward to actually go on the road and move somewhere that would be warm in the winter time. So excited, Mark was happy because his equipment was working and he was looking forward to getting our little business off the ground so that we could travel with it.
Life continued on at that pace for a while, savings was growing we were looking forward to moving with our motor home to somewhere really warm for the winter. I was released to go back to work full time in October. By this time the decision was coming down to the wire on what we were going to do.
Blasted right out of the water again. Our motor home blew its engine, 6 weeks after I was returned to full time work I got laid off. And guess what it is winter again. Everything was falling down around us again. No work for Mark, everything that we own is in the pawn shops, so can not even do the business that he started to get us on our way. But I refused to be in a dark place again this winter.
So Jess and I have been following a cousin by marriage, progress in her weight loss, she was dropping like nothing I had ever seen and she was also doing it as a business to supplement her income. And well why not it was working wonders for her.
After the slim to nothing holidays Jess and I decided that we wanted to jump on that same train. I refuse to be fat and depressed and unhealthy any longer. And my daughter wants to live a long life with no heart issues, which is very possible due to her fathers history. So here we are and here is to the new us for the year 2013. It can only get better. I hit ,my bottom long ago.
Well that is my story, stay tuned for Jessicas soon.
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